Just Go with It

He is back to his old ways
His mean words and selfish displays
What he says hurts
But she doesn’t let it show
If she doesn’t say anything then no one will ever know
She goes to the one that is supposed to be her mom
But when she does everything goes all wrong
She says: "Don’t say that to her it hurts her feelings"
He goes: "Shut up (Female Dog)"
And now her lips are bleeding
She doesn’t have the strength to say goodbye
Even though he yells at her, hits her, and makes her cry
No matter what it seems like he always wins
She cares for him more than she does her own kids.
I’m too young so my only choice is to stay
God, do me a favor and make this pain go away

Im Still Fighting

It’s dark and cold
She’s hopeless yet bold
Trying to find her way back home
She can’t go there now
No one accepts her, but she still has faith
They have every right to be mad, upset, yell and scream
But everyone sees past the girl that she wants to be
Her father gave her a life and brought her back home
Even though he’s the one who beat her and threw her in the cold
She is closest to him, because there is no other
She still waits on that one person to stand up and be her mother
Until then she waits
He treats her worst calling her fat, ugly, and dirty
He acts like a child but is over the age of 30
What he says cuts her deeper than the blade that draws her blood
But builds her stronger, than anyone ever could
She shall figure her way out when she is older...
But for now the sin lies in the hands of its beholder

R.I.P Amanda Todd.

I seen this picture on Facebook and i'm like what are they talking about? So i goggled it and the ABCNews website that I clicked on it talked about a 15 year old girl who lived in Port Coquitlam, British Columbia.

It was said that she had put a video on You Tube verbalizing her story using flashcards with writing on them. Right then and there I stopped and I watched the video with my roommates. She started talking about how in the seventh grade she talked to new guys that were online... and she referred them as her "friends". They complimented her telling that she was beautiful and what not. Then one of the men that she was talking to asked her to show him her chest. I'm assuming that at first she resisted... but then a year later she did. Amanda had received an anonymous facebook message saying that if she did not "put on a show" for him then he would send the picture of her chest to everyone. Over Christmas break she said that the police showed up at her house at 4 am saying that the photo had been sent to everyone. After that to me it seems like she just broke down. She said that she had moved on to drugs and alcohol. Amanda had moved a year later and everything was going good for her until the man from facebook came back and put the picture of her boobs as his profile picture she said "I cried every night, lost all my friends and respect people had for me again." She talked about how people called her names, how she started to cut herself, and how she ate alone. She also talked about a story of a certain situation where she made a huge mistake and hooked up with a boy at her school that had a girlfriend but she still believed that he really liked her. She mentioned that a week later she had gotten a text saying for her to go outside of her school. There was a group of students, with that one boy’s girlfriend being the head of the mob. They all surrounded her saying "Look around, nobody likes you." Some guy from the crowd had yelled "Just punch her already" so the girlfriend did. She stated that she threw her down to the ground and punched her several times. Some kids even filmed it; she wanted to die so bad when her dad found her in a ditch. Once she got home she tried to kill herself by drinking bleach and had to be rushed to the hospital to have her stomach pumped. She said once she got home and logged onto facebook all she saw was "She deserved it. Did you wash the mud out of your hair? I hope she’s dead." Once again Amanda moved to another city, but for sure the bullying and torture had followed her through facebook. Kids posted pictures of ditches and also suggested that she try a different brand of bleach. At the end of the video she said...

"Every day, I think, why is I still here?" she asked towards the end of the video. "I'm stuck. What's left of me now? Nothing stops. I have nobody. I need someone. My name is Amanda Todd."

Acceptance

Acceptance is a very hard thing to do expecially if its not something that youur used to or even somethng that you dont like. don’t let the past steal your present and future from you. You might not be proud of all the things you've done in the past or even the things that were done to you, but that’s okay. The past is not today. The past cannot be changed, forgotten, or erased. It can only be accepted. We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future. Don't let something that happened last year effect what is going on today. Its not worth it.. any of it




"For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."  John 3:16

* TAKE ADVANTAGE

Love Yourself

I honestly believe that you cant truly and honestly love someone else if you don't truly and honestly love yourself. If you can love children, in spite of the messes they make; your mother, in spite of her tendency to nag; your father, even though he’s too opinionated; your sibling, even though she’s always late; your friend, even though he often forgets to return what he/she borrows, then you know how to love imperfect people, and can surely love yourself. The most memorable people in your life will be the ones who loved you when you weren't very lovable. Pay attention to who these people are in your life, and love them back, even when they aren't acting lovable.

Matthew 19:19
"Honor your father and mother. Love your neighbor as yourself."

Be Who You Really Are

If you’re lucky enough to have something that makes you different from everybody else, don’t change. Uniqueness is priceless. In this crazy world that’s trying to make you like everyone else, find the courage to keep being your awesome self. And when they laugh at you for being different, laugh back at them for being the same. God made you, you for a reason. Everyone else is taken you shouldn't need to have to be anyone else but yourself. It takes a lot of courage to stand alone, but it’s worth it. Being YOU is worth it!

Galatians 6:4 - "But let every man prove his own work, and then shall he have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another."

Forgive Those Who Hurt You

Forgiveness isn't a easy thing to do even when you don't want to but then again when you think about it a lot of thing go along with not forgiving people. For example hatefulness. I have learned to forgive people, but that doesn't mean I trust them. I just don’t have time to hate people who hurt me, because I’m too busy loving people who love me. Being the first to apologize is the bravest. The first to forgive is the strongest. The first to move forward is the happiest. Be brave. Be strong. Be happy. Be You.


“Forgiving and being forgiven are two names for the same thing. The important thing is that a discord has been resolved.”  ~ C.S. Lewis 

Depression

A lot of people think that if someone is depressed they are attention seeking, but I can't believe people would think that. These people are ill, they're depressed and they need help - like therapy to help them get better. Something has triggered them to this, like my best friend she had an abortion and couldn't live with herself. It's not their fault they feel so low and we can never judge someone. We can't judge someone why they chose to do this, because we don't know what's gone in their life and they are not weak. I think it's so sad when someone reaches this low point in their life. They don't want attention, they want help. everyone needs help once in a while.

When someone picks on someone else, how do you feel? What do you do?

When i see a kid picking on other kids, it makes me furious especially if the kid that is doing the picking is 3 times bigger than whoever that person is picking on. Some people can just sit back and let that type of stuff happen and say "well that's none of my business", but me? i cant. I know what it feels like to be bullied, I know what it feels like to not feel wanted or even how to stick up for yourself. I know what it feels like to feel like you don't fit in somewhere where you totally belong. There are battles that people our age fight every single day & we are completely absent to whatever there situation is. So when i see that type of stuff my first instinct is to stick up for those who (at the moment) aren't able to stick up for themselves. When someone steps in and kind of speaks for them, i believe it shows them that someone cares and that someone is seeing a piece of what they are going through. It makes them feel worth it, worth fighting for then you know maybe one day they will start to stick up for themselves. Also i just wanna say that maybe the person who is doing the bulling/picking is fighting there own battles. What if there about to hit there breaking point? i'm not at all saying that what they are doing is okay. What im saying is do not ever judge a book by it's cover
Suicide is the third leading cause of death among young people, resulting in about 4,400 deaths per year, according to the CDC. For every suicide among young people, there are at least 100 suicide attempts. Over 14 percent of high school students have considered suicide, and almost 7 percent have attempted it.
According to statistics reported by ABC News, nearly 30 percent of students are either bullies or victims of bullying, and 160,000 kids stay home from school every day because of fear of bullying

"For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now i can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light" -Psalm 56:13

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